8月22日 竭誠為主

822 我是……但他

我是用水給你們施洗,……但……他要用聖靈與火給你們施洗。(太三11

我是否已經到達可以說“我是……但他”的地步?未經歷這一刻,便實在不知道聖靈的洗到底是什麼意思。我果真到了盡頭,一無辦法;他就在此開始作人所無法作的。我預備好迎接他的來臨嗎?若路上有東西阻隔,不論是好是壞,他都不能來。在他來的時候,我是否預備好讓他把我一切的錯失帶到光中對付?他正要在這些事上臨到你。我明知不潔的地方,他就插足其中;我以為潔淨的地方,他就離去。

悔改並不會帶來罪疚感,只會叫人覺得自己絕對的不配。我悔改時,知道自己無能為力,連替他提鞋也不配。我有沒有這樣悔改過?還是暗地裡還為自己留一點餘地?神仍未能進入我的生命,是因為我還未徹底悔改。“他要用聖靈與火給你們施洗。”約翰並沒有把聖靈的洗當作一個經歷,他是視之為耶穌基督的工作。“他要給你們施洗。”凡受過聖靈施洗的人,唯一的知覺就是自己完全不配。“我是……”這樣或那樣,“但他”來了,奇妙的事就發生。我們退居末位吧,讓他成就一切。

祈禱◆主啊,我多麼貧乏!那麼多的軟弱潛伏在隱藏的地方,要將我整個人摧毀。噢,主啊,我投向你。我何等需要認識到,離開了你,我便不能作什麼。


August 22 “I Indeed… But He”

I indeed baptize you with water . .
but He shall baptize you with the Holy Ghost and fire.” Matthew 3:11

Have I ever come to a place in my experience where I can say – “I indeed
– but He”? Until that moment does come, I will never know what the baptism of
the Holy Ghost means. I indeed am at an end, I cannot do a thing: but He begins
just there – He does the things no one else can ever do. Am I prepared for His
coming? Jesus cannot come as long as there is anything in the way either of
goodness or badness. When He comes am I prepared for Him to drag into the light
every wrong thing I have done? It is just there that He comes. Wherever I know
I am unclean, He will put His feet; wherever I think I am clean, He will
withdraw them.

Repentance does not bring a sense of sin, but a sense of unutterable
unworthiness. When I repent, I realize that I am utterly helpless; I know all
through me that I am not worthy even to bear His shoes. Have I repented like that?
Or is there a lingering suggestion of standing up for myself? The reason God
cannot come into my life is because I am not through into repentance.

He shall baptize you with the Holy Ghost and fire.” John does not speak
of the baptism of the Holy Ghost as an experience, but as a work performed by
Jesus Christ. “He shall baptize you.” The only conscious experience those who
are baptized with the Holy Ghost ever have is a sense of absolute unworthiness.

I indeed was this and that; but He came, and a marvellous thing
happened. Get to the margin where He does everything.

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