August 22 “I Indeed… But He”
I indeed baptize you with water . .
but He shall baptize you with the Holy Ghost and fire.” Matthew 3:11
Have I ever come to a place in my experience where I can say – “I indeed
– but He”? Until that moment does come, I will never know what the baptism of
the Holy Ghost means. I indeed am at an end, I cannot do a thing: but He begins
just there – He does the things no one else can ever do. Am I prepared for His
coming? Jesus cannot come as long as there is anything in the way either of
goodness or badness. When He comes am I prepared for Him to drag into the light
every wrong thing I have done? It is just there that He comes. Wherever I know
I am unclean, He will put His feet; wherever I think I am clean, He will
Repentance does not bring a sense of sin, but a sense of unutterable
unworthiness. When I repent, I realize that I am utterly helpless; I know all
through me that I am not worthy even to bear His shoes. Have I repented like that?
Or is there a lingering suggestion of standing up for myself? The reason God
cannot come into my life is because I am not through into repentance.
“He shall baptize you with the Holy Ghost and fire.” John does not speak
of the baptism of the Holy Ghost as an experience, but as a work performed by
Jesus Christ. “He shall baptize you.” The only conscious experience those who
are baptized with the Holy Ghost ever have is a sense of absolute unworthiness.
I indeed was this and that; but He came, and a marvellous thing
happened. Get to the margin where He does everything.